In 2019, my practice was changing VOIP providers. I was actually very excited about it at first. The new VOIP company would handle our phone service, but our landline also worked as a textable number through a separate company whose software we already liked. Our instructions were clear: move the phone service and leave the texting service exactly where it was.
The new provider moved both. Of course they did.
Suddenly, the texting software we preferred no longer worked and it was going to affect customer service. I asked my manager to get the texting service moved back to the original company. She tried, got nowhere, and began sending me emails that essentially said no one would help her and the problem could not be fixed.
I knew the issue existed, but I was beyond busy. I also did not meet with my manager regularly, so there was no protected place where she had to tell me, in person, what was stuck, what she had tried, and what she needed from me. Her updates went into my inbox, which was already flooded with unopened emails. The problem was technically being communicated, but it was not being managed.
Then one night I woke up at two in the morning in a panic. Had the VOIP problem ever been resolved?
I got out of bed and opened my email. There they were: a string of defeated messages from my manager, each one another version of hands up in the air. At 2:30 a.m., I wrote a strongly worded email to the management of both companies involved. Then I went back to bed, except I could not sleep. Now that I had opened my inbox, I was worried about what else might be hiding in there.
Less than four hours later, I had to get up for work. When I opened my email at 6:30 a.m., I saw that I had received an email that the issue had been resolved.
Everyone praised me. The manager. The team. “You showed them who’s boss, doctor!” Somehow I had done in one email what no one else had been able to do for two weeks. From the outside, it looked like one more example of the owner stepping in and saving the day.
They saw the win. I felt the cost.
The applause was part of the problem
For a capable owner, rescuing the moment can feel like leadership. The problem gets solved. The client experience is protected. The team is relieved. People tell you how amazing you are, and for a minute, the praise almost makes the exhaustion feel worthwhile.
But every rescue teaches the business something.
My manager learned that when she reached the end of what she knew how to do, the problem could eventually travel back to me. The vendors learned that the situation became urgent when the owner appeared. And I reinforced the belief that if something mattered enough, I had better keep carrying it somewhere in the back of my mind—even while I slept.
That does not excuse my manager. She owned a problem she was not moving forward, and that mattered. But leadership required me to look at the entire situation, including the part I had built. I had delegated the task without creating a reliable place to review progress. I had no regular meeting where blocked work had to surface. We had not agreed on when she should bring a stuck problem to me, what authority she had, or what evidence I needed that the problem was actually being handled.
The task had left my desk. The responsibility had not.
That distinction is the heart of founder dependency. It is not always obvious dysfunction. Sometimes it looks like competence. Sometimes it gets applause. Sometimes it produces a solved problem by sunrise.
That is why it can be so difficult to recognize. You think the story proves how valuable you are. What it may actually prove is that the business has made your personal intervention part of its operating plan.
The problem was not that I knew how to write an effective email. The problem was that the practice needed its sleeping owner to wake up frightened enough to write it.
Audit what keeps reaching for you
If your business keeps pulling you back into the operator’s seat, do not begin by asking how to become less available. Begin by asking what your availability has been covering up.
For one week, notice every time the business reaches for you. Include the obvious interruptions—a team member asking for a decision, a problem being handed back, a vendor issue that suddenly needs your voice. But also include the quieter ones: the task you check without being asked, the conversation you keep rehearsing, and the issue you monitor because you do not trust anyone else to close it.
Then examine each one. Was the outcome unclear? Was ownership unclear? Did the person have the authority to move forward? Was there a dependable time and place for blocked work to be reviewed? Or did you step in before anyone else had the chance to develop the judgment you keep wishing they had?
This is not an exercise in blaming your team. It is a Truth Audit on your leadership. Some of what you find will belong to them. Some will belong to a weak rhythm, a vague handoff, or a rule for raising problems that exists only inside your head. And some will belong to you—the part of you that feels safer solving the problem than waiting to see whether someone else can.
If that VOIP problem happened again, I would still care deeply about the outcome. I might even need to become involved. Ownership does not mean refusing to intervene when something important is at risk. But before saying, “Handle it,” I would establish the result we needed, when I expected an update, what my manager could decide without me, and the point at which the issue needed to be escalated.
My involvement would become the exception, not the emergency plan hiding underneath the delegation.
That is CEO Authority. It is not being absent, detached, or impossible to reach. It is creating enough clarity that every uncertainty does not have to climb the ladder until it lands in your body. It is giving problems a place to surface before they become 2:00 a.m. alarms. It is teaching the business how to use your decisions without requiring your exhaustion.
The strongest version of me was never the woman who could fix anything at 2:30 in the morning. It was the woman willing to stop confusing rescue with leadership.
Queen, being needed is not the same as leading. The goal is not a business that never has problems, but rather one that does not need every problem to travel through you before it can be solved.
You are allowed to be the owner without becoming the emergency system. That is not neglecting what you built. That is finally leading it by design.
I go deeper on this in Episode 55 of the QueenMode podcast — find it on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or YouTube Music.
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